Cultivando la Valentía | Enfrentando tus Temores
Rompiendo el molde de ‘perfección’
¿Alguna vez has tenido una de esas semanas cuando piensas, Las cosas no podrían empeorarse, y la semana siguiente pasa exactamente eso, a un nivel sin precedentes? Durante las últimas cuatro semanas, he estado realmente consciente de que el temor y la ansiedad han intentado deslizarse en mi vida a través de las situaciones, circunstancias y tramas. A veces han sido disfrazados como serpiente, envenenándome lentamente con duda e incredulidad. Otras veces han sido como un león feroz al acecho, que me paraliza donde estoy.
En mi vida AC, luchaba durante muchísimo tiempo contra la depresión, la autolesión y los ataques de ansiedad. Luchaba contra las ideas suicidas y varias veces busqué matarme, lo que me llevo a estar ingresada en el hospital. El temor y la ansiedad dominaron mi vida. Eran el fundamento sobre lo cual mi identidad fue construida. Cuando Jesús entró por primera vez en mi vida, despidió a besos todo ese temor con un amor puro y sin diluir, y por primera vez desde mi niñez pude respirar sin el peso de la ansiedad sobre el pecho. Desde que me convertí, ya no lucho contra la ansiedad…hasta hace cuatro semanas.
Me parece que hay un mito en la comunidad cristiana que nuestras vidas tienen que estar serenas para mostrar al mundo le perfecto que es Jesús. “Eres cristiana, no puedes estar ansiosa. ¡El amor perfecto echa fuera el temor!“, o “¿Estás deprimida? ¿Cómo puedes estar deprimida y ser cristiana?” ¿Me permites ser honesta contigo ahora mismo? Me he derrumbado tantas veces este año, y en gran parte ha sido porque he tenido miedo. A veces a sido por miedo a fracasar, a decepcionar a Dios, a decepcionar a las personas, a no predicar bien, a no decir o hacer lo correcto, a no ser lo suficiente buena, a si realmente escucho la voz de Dios, o, el gran miedo que siempre me paraliza, el miedo a la ruina económica.
Durante la última semana, experimentamos una situación muy real en la cual el temor literalmente entró en nuestro hogar. Eso me perturbó y me empujó a un lugar que hace muchos años no visito. De repente, no me sentí segura, y esa ansiedad que era mi ‘hogar’ empezó a apretarme otra vez. Fue en este lugar que Dios empezó a hablarme sobre el poder de cultivar la valentía.
¿Qué es el temor?
Desde que era pequeña, cada vez que he tenido miedo mi Mamá siempre me ha dicho “Siente el temor y de todas formas, hazlo” o “La valentía no es la ausencia de temor, sino la decisión que algo es más importante que el temor que enfrentas.” También usa el acrónimo Falsa Evidencia Aparece Real (FEAR es temor o miedo en inglés). Crecí con estas verdades sencillas en mi vida. Y es que a veces son pertinentes, y a veces no.
A veces el temor se disfraza como una situación ¿y si…?. “¿Y si no soy lo suficiente buena?” “¿Y si mi negocio fracasa?” “¿Y si no sale bien?” “¿Y si vuelve mi enfermedad?” O “¿Y si me quedo sola para siempre?” El propósito de esos temores de “¿Y si…?” es hacer que tu temor sea más grande que la realidad de lo que enfrentas. En estos casos, el temor se presenta como montaña cuando la realidad es que ¡no es más que un topo pequeño haciendo una topera!
Otras veces, el temor puede ser una presencia muy real en nuestras vidas, y viene como respuesta natural a un peligro físico. Literalmente puede acercarse y tocar la puerta de nuestros corazones, y si lo damos la entrada, el temor causa un bloqueo en las canales del amor de Dios en cada área de nuestra mente, voluntad y emociones. Conforme ese temor se filtra en nuestros corazones, empezamos a actuar de forma distinta. Por instinto, construimos muros defensivos con la intención de protegernos y mantenernos seguros, pero lo que verdaderamente hacemos es aislarnos y mantener a Dios fuera. Cuando hacemos esto, creamos la atmósfera propicia para que el temor se multiplique y envenene cada área de nuestra vida que Dios creó para ser buena.
El origen de todo temor
********************************************************************In order to overcome fear we have to identify with two things. 1. God is love. 2. Fear is not from God. Over the last five years of walking with Jesus, I have noticed two distinct lies that seem to grip the children of God from moving forward into their destiny and overcoming their fears.
1. The devil does not exist.
When I first came to faith, I had a radical encounter with Jesus so could not in any way deny His existence. However, coming to terms with the fact that there really is a hell, demonic powers and that there really was a fallen angel called lucifer who is unleashing fury on earth and is the source of evil in this world was so unbelievable to me! In fact, I thought it was totally bonkers! I mean, I was cool with Jesus, Heaven and His angels, but Satan and his minions? Nah, that seemed like a load of nonsense…
Then I started reading the Bible and as I began applying what it said into my life and I stood for Heaven, Hell started to rise! You see, that is the reality of being a Christian, and excuse the bluntness here, but if you aren’t seeing traits of hell edging in and around your path, then you need to ask yourself, are you on the right path at all?
If we do not acknowledge that hell is a real place and then we have no need of a saviour, neither does the world around us. So we are happy to just sit in church week after week and hear epic stories from the Bible and say we are Christian but are asleep to the reality of the grave danger that the people around us are in and the path that mankind is taking towards destruction. If you truly believe the gospel, I mean seriously, if you truly believe the Gospel, then you won’t be afraid to speak out to that person you love about Jesus. We cannot judge peoples right to salvation by simply saying ‘they wouldn’t be interested,’ last time I checked, weeping and gnashing of teeth is not something I would want anyone to sign up too for a moment let alone eternity. Jesus spoke more about the reality of hell in the gospels than He did about Heaven!
The purpose of this lie is to keep you blissfully unaware of the spiritual battle that is happening all around you and to keep you from stepping into your God given authority as a co-heir of Christ. If the enemy can keep you in denial of his existence, then you are no threat whatsoever to his kingdom. The moment you realise who you are and what you carry within you, and you being to walk in the power of your transformed life, then just by your very existence you threaten lucifers reign.
2. God does not speak to us.
We know the Bible tells us that satan is the father of lies, so everything he does is the opposite of Gods nature. The very first time we see satan in the Bible, we see him coming into the garden of Eden to undermine the character of God to His children. ‘But did God really say…’ The more I travel about and pray/speak with people, the more I realise that the enemy is attempting to cut the communication line to the Father heart of God with the lie of ‘did God really say that? Why would He want to talk to you? You’re a nobody, you’re a mess! You need to get yourself together first before God can speak to you!’
Out of all the lies we believe, I think this is the most dangerous. I once heard TD Jakes say ‘We are speaking spirits in a fleshly body.’ You see, before God formed you in your Mothers womb, He knew you. (Jeremiah 1:4). Wow, what does that mean? Before you were even alive here on earth, you had a relationship with your Heavenly Father, spirit to spirit. To ‘know somebody’ usually involves communication! You can’t know a stranger!
God speaks to us all the time! In fact, I think God speaks to us constantly but our interpretation of how God speaks to us is wrong. We confine our ‘inner ear’ when we start to define how it is that we think God should be talking to us based on our understanding on how He is speaking to those around us. The danger of doing this is that we then begin to think that there’s something wrong with us when we think that God isn’t talking to us because we are expecting Him to communicate with us one way and then it doesn’t happen. We need to learn how to attune to the frequency that has been set apart for us. I think its really important to highlight that not everyone is hearing an audible voice from God every time they start sharing about what God is saying to them. God speaks in many different languages, not just english. God speaks to us in a language we understand usually through our passions and desires. God often speaks to me through music, poetry, nature, scents, gardening, creativity, visions, dreams etc.
If the enemy, the father of lies can get you to believe that your Heavenly Father does not speak to you then you’ve got a BIG problem! I mean, you’re not going to speak to someone who you think isn’t going to speak to you! If you don’t believe that God is a speaking God then you aren’t going to pursue a deep and meaningful prayer life and if you don’t establish a prayer life then you are no threat whatsoever to the enemies territory! See the pattern here?
Advance. Do not retreat.
Sometimes fear can literally ambush you. It can blindside you out of nowhere and knock you off your feet. Just because you are a Christian, does not mean you won’t face fear in your life. The strongest Christians I know will at some point or another have a bare knuckled fight with fear in areas of their life during trials and tribulations. During the week I spoke with my Pastor who used the analogy of a battery to explain what I was walking through. He said, ‘you cant have a positive without a negative. You must have both a positive and a negative to connect the power source.’ To think that we won’t go through scary situations or endure trials is ludicrous and nothing sort of Christian la la land.
BUT!! We have a choice!! We can come into agreement with that fear and allow it to come into our souls and alter how we see Papa God or we can submit to God, resist the devil and watch him flee! Sometimes it’s not that easy and I get that! Sometimes it is a continual submission, sometimes it is an act of faith! What I have learnt this last few weeks is that when you are on a battlefield, and the enemy seems like he’s got the upper hand, thats exactly the time to advance into his territory and plunder his land of its riches. The enemy will only seek to come in and occupy land of great value! Wow… I wonder how precious and valuable you are?!
You see, we are fighting a defeated foe! No seriously, I don’t know what Bible you are reading but my Bible tells me that Jesus went into hell and said “I died, but see, I am alive forevermore, and I have the keys of [absolute control and victory over] death and of Hades (the realm of the dead),” Revelation 1:18 AMP. Jesus also said to us in Luke 10:19-20, “Listen carefully: I have given you authority [that you now possess] to tread on serpents and scorpions, and [the ability to exercise authority] over all the power of the enemy (Satan); and nothing will [in any way] harm you.”
Wake o wake o sleeper
Fear is the most common way the enemy will attack you. If he can get you paralysed in fear, then its going to block out the love of God and immobilise you as a Christian. The power of Heaven is displayed through the Love of God. It is through the Love of God that the Gospel is displayed to creation and we are the vessels of Heaven on earth.
This week, I was genuinely afraid but I made a conscious decision to advance in the very area the enemy was using that fear to try and immobilise me and the Holy spirit cultivated the fruit of courage on the vine of my heart. Advancing across the enemy line when your heart is shaking takes every ounce of courage you have, but greater is He that is within you that He who is in the world. When you come to the Lord in that weakness, confess of the fear trying to penetrate your heart and ask Him to strengthen you, He will.
I read somewhere once, that the Bible tells us to ‘fear not’ in several different ways over 300 times!! I think that when we come into agreement with that fear it undermines the perfect character of our Father in Heaven, that we aren’t trusting Him in that particular area that we are fearful about. For example, this week I was scared and fearful for my safety and had to continually surrender that fear to God that because the truth was that He is and always will be my protector and my covering!
For some of us, living in fear of man has frozen us in apathy and lukewarm Christianity, others have fallen asleep because they have an altered view of Papa God and are not connected to the voice of Heaven. Maybe today, reading this blog has been a bit of a punch in the gut for you and you know what? That can only be a good thing! That just means that there is some room in there for some light to shine and awaken areas of your heart that have grown cold and dark. “Light makes everything visible. This is why it is said, “Awake, O sleeper, rise up from the dead, and Christ will give you light.” Ephesians 5:14 NLT.
This far and no further
If this blog has in any way spoke to you, I want you to place your hand on your heart and ask the Holy Spirit to come and clear out all the channels that have become blocked with fear, anxiety and worry.
If you are believing that God doesn’t speak to you, then I want you to repent of believing that lie and declare the truth that God is a loving Father who wants full custody of His children at all times and is interested in every area of your life and ask the Holy Spirit to awaken your eyes and ears to see His hand and hear His voice guiding your steps on your path.
God did not create you to be held in fear. It’s okay to be afraid but it is not okay to stay there. Ask Him to help you take down the walls of your defences and bring His light into the shadows. Draw a line in your heart today and say ‘This far and no further, I repent of allowing fear to overrule your love in my life Lord. I receive your peace which surpasses all my understanding, in Jesus name, Amen’
Listen to the truth in the lyrics of this song and surrender your fears!